He Knows What We Need

Several years ago, I was diagnosed with a rare autoimmune disorder called Ankylosing Spondylitis. As part of my treatment plan, I receive infusion therapy every six weeks. There have been many times over the years when my insurance has denied paying for the infusion for various reasons. Each time that happens, it causes a lot of issues for me physically including a very serious, painful eye condition that can lead to blindness. 

On Thursday I received a letter in the mail from my insurance company saying they were no longer paying for my infusions. Immediate panic set in because my appointment was scheduled for today, Monday. That gave me one business day to figure out how to keep my appointment from being cancelled. One business day is typically not nearly enough time to get insurance to do anything. I began preparing myself for the possibility of not being able to get my infusion and therefore, enduring the painful results of that. 

Late Thursday night I decided to stop fretting and pray. Then, I messaged my doctor about the letter. Thankfully, this doctor always responds right away. When I woke up on Friday morning, I read her response. She informed me that her office had received the letter a couple of weeks prior and had taken care of it. She said, "You're good to go for Monday." Those words were so sweet to read! 

I'm not sure why I didn't receive the letter when they did or why no one informed me about the denial, but I am incredibly grateful my doctor dealt with it, without me even having to worry or work to get things figured out. 

As I sit in my infusion bay, I am reminded that God knows what we need before we even ask. Just like my doctor's office, He is always working behind the scenes in ways we aren't even aware of. He knows what is happening all around us and what's coming up ahead, even when we're oblivious to it all. 

"Before they call, I will answer; while they are still speaking, I will hear." Isaiah 65:24 (NIV)

The panic and worry I felt when reading the letter from my insurance company was pointless and didn't help one bit. Those emotions were a result of fear and a lack of trust that my doctor's office even received the letter or that that anything would have been done to help me without me asking for it. To be fair, those concerns are based on past experiences when the insurance company and doctors have failed me, but thankfully, God hasn't failed me yet, and I need to remember that! He doesn't need my panic or worry, or even my help! I can rest in His ability and desire to help me, no matter what.

Whatever you and I face today, or in the future, we can rest assured that God cares about us and knows exactly what we need before we do. His faithfulness is not dependent on us. That's really good news!

Tori