Fall On Your Knees

"You may have a brain tumor," are not the words you ever expect to hear from your doctor's mouth. Especially the week before Christmas and even more especially, when you have four small children! Earlier this week, while at a follow-up appointment for a nodule in my thyroid, my doctor noticed some alarming numbers in my lab work and because of some of serious symptoms I've been dealing with, she muttered those words. After several more tests, days of waiting, and a whole lot of praying, the results came back that I do NOT have a brain tumor! Praise God!

As you can imagine, this week has been hard. Instead of being excited about Christmas and enjoying the time I spent baking cookies with my kids, wrapping presents, and watching old Christmas movies, I spent the week feeling pretty overwhelmed, not knowing what the future holds. And even with the news that there is no tumor, I still have the concerning lab work and serious symptoms that need a diagnosis, so the unknown is still somewhat overwhelming. I'm not going to lie, this whole month is been hard for me. This crazy brain tumor scare, a precious relationship falling a apart, so many physical concerns, some big decisions having to be made, all while trying to get everything done and make sure this season is special for my family....it's just so much.

A couple of days ago my husband brought home a beautiful sign that he bought for me. It simply says, "Fall on your knees." I feel as though he brought home the best "to-do" list ever written. It is such a good reminder. At Christmas and any time during the year, what we really need to do is fall on our knees. In that position of humility and reverence, we are intentionally putting our focus on the ONE that has every answer, meets every need, and loves us unconditionally. Today I am grateful for the ability to do just that and for the much needed reminder.

So, whether you're spending this Christmas with friends and family or you're missing someone you love, enjoying good news or juggling bad news, with a house bursting with joy and love or one full of pain and heartache, the prescription is the same....fall on your knees. Allow the Holy Spirit to comfort your heart and fill you with His joy. My prayer is that you and I would enjoy all the hustle and bustle of this Christmas season but that we would remember WHO it's really about. I pray that we would fall on our knees and place our focus on Him. And as the old hymn says, "and the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace."

Merry Christmas!